If you’re a frequent reader you’ve probably noticed that I’ve been out of commission for a while. Although there are several different reasons, the major culprits have been my lack of motivation, the direction my blog seems to be traveling in and the hurry up and wait game I’ve been playing with a potential employer. Yep… I know I said I would never EVER again ride the crazy train working to make someone else rich and I promise you I won’t, but I am smart enough to recognize a great opportunity.
Seeing how I have complete control over all three of the issues that have impacted my posting schedule you wouldn’t think there would be a problem, but here’s the thing – I’m the problem. I’m the biggest problem.
It’s not that I lack motivation it’s just the simple fact that I’m either ON or OFF. I’m a self-starter with only one switch and I generally keep it ON, but lately I’ve been trying to toggle it between the two. It’s not a toggle switch. I don’t have a toggle switch. I don’t relax well and when I do, it takes me awhile to gain momentum. I know… It’s a process. Just hang with me as I sort through a few things. Give me a week or two and I’ll be back on my square I just need to schedule time to write and work. I’ll explain.
When I first started blogging, I never thought in a million years I could make money doing it. I didn’t care. It was never about the money. About a year ago I attended my first bloggy boot camp and made a little money writing a sponsored post for Invisalign and I’ve been hooked ever since.
However, as much as I hate this next phrase, I really need to find a “sweet spot”. I need to focus and start writing my own content before I can commit to any future sponsored posts. I may be committing blogger suicide, but first and foremost; I blog for me.
A few weeks ago, a courtship began between me and a future employer. After a tour and brief meeting we had dinner, a few cocktails – they said they’d be in touch – then NOTHING. Of course, I didn’t panic, but I did wonder what went wrong. Prior to our “date”, they were so hotsie totsie – and now the cold shoulder. What gives? For weeks, I’m sweating a call back for a job I never knew existed or applied for. I had to remind myself a few times – They chose me! Then the offer came. I pushed back. They came up and I accepted my boarding pass on the crazy train – this time on my own terms. I rest easy knowing that I WANT but don’t NEED this job.
I wish I could tell you my infrequent posting was due to something more exciting and fantastic, but sometimes the truth is just as exciting and fantastic.
See what had happened was…
I’m Just Sayin’…(Damn!)