First off let me start by saying that I’m not a selfish or an insensitive person. I know by saying that, it implies that I am, but I don’t want this post to be taken the wrong way; therefore, it probably will.
Last week, my former workplace BFF invited me to a benefit being held for her husband who is currently battling colon cancer. When she asked if I would be able to attend, I immediately said yes. However, the little voice inside my head was screaming –
“Are you nuts?”
“You hate stuff like that!”
Unlike most people, my conscience just doesn’t help me choose between right and wrong it also protects me from things I don’t want to do or places I don’t want to go, and I didn’t want to go.
Although I’ve known her for over 10 years, I REALLY DID NOT want to go. Before you stop reading and head straight to the comments to give me the business rest assured I don’t live in a bubble and I do live on this planet.
I knew it was for a good cause and that it would raise awareness for a very serious disease, but I didn’t want to go to a cancer benefit for a friend, no more than I want to go to a funeral. I wouldn’t want to go for a family member.
I don’t need nor want cancer to have a face.
I was conflicted for an entire week. Even the day of, I wasn’t sure I was going.
If this had been an ordinary American Cancer Society event~ Relay for Life, etc. I would have been there with bells on. I guess it is just easier for me to care when I don’t know who I’m supposed to care about.
Even if I wanted too, I wasn’t sure I could attend and be upbeat and optimistic…encouraging. All I could think about was how bad I felt that she and her family were going through this and what would I do if it was me.
You may think that’s insensitive or selfish or whatever.
I started to feel really bad because I didn’t want to go, but at the same time, I wanted to be able to do something for her, so I went. Despite the situation that brought us all together, everyone appeared to be in good spirits.
There were no tears, stories of survival or loss, but there was information stressing the importance of living a healthier lifestyle which can help reduce the risk of developing many types of cancer. Regular screening can often detect colon and other cancers early when its treatable and sometimes preventable.
If you’d like to learn more or you want to get involved and join the fight against cancer click here. With so many ribbons to choose from I’m pretty sure we can all find a cause worth fighting for.